Weight Watchers - day 1, again!

Being a Mom of three, or a Mom of one, or hey even a woman - there is a constant battle with weight.  I feel like I have been battling it since high school.  Up and down I go.  I go up - and then I recommit to whatever new plan (or old plan) I have.  I make all these promises and plans to myself and others - and somewhere along the line the plan fails.  I fall off the wagon.  I take a slide down - I eat fast food, forget about the gym until I have had enough and then I recommit again.  It is a vicious cycle that I am having trouble breaking and that has provided me little success.

Even before my pregnancies I had these issues and with the weight gain of pregnancy things got even harder.  With #1 we did IVF, which came with a lot of drugs and 10 lbs before I even got pregnant.  Then I let lose!  55 lbs later we had a beautiful baby boy!  18 months later, a friend convinced me to join the gym and I was able to lose 65 lbs.  All of the IVF weight and baby weight.  Pregnant with #2 I was too busy to chow down as I had before.  Only 35 lbs.  I was able to shed those fairly quickly and then start attacking the extra weight I had been trying to get rid of since my post-wedding gain.  I was pregnant with #3 and gained about 40.  Here we are - 18 months after #3 and it has been a roller coaster.

I won't go into all the little ups and downs on the scale.  The really frustrating thing is that the things that had worked after #1 and #2 are not enough now.  I am not 28 or 30 anymore.  I am 34 and my body is not cooperating as it used to.  I am worried that to get the weight loss I want I am going to have to go to the gym 5 times a week and have my eating near perfect.  With three young kids I cannot wrap my head around how this is possible.  I got on the scale this morning and the number glaring back at me set me in a tailspin today.  But giving up, doesn't feel like a real option to me.  What else can I do but try.

I am putting my goals out there with the hopes that it will help me stick to them.  I am going to try really logging all my food.  I just adjusted my weight watcher points to reflect the fact that I am no longer breastfeeding.  26 points is soooooo low!  I am going to drink my water.  I am going to try to exercise 5 times a week.  I am going to do this for the next 30 days and see how I am doing.  Let's do this!!!